This is not goodbye

As some of you may have noticed, I've been pretty absent these last few months. A lot has happened and I think it's time to finally be honest. These last 8 months I have been struggling with my mental health, after doing multiple cons almost back to back, while also struggling with some personal stuff that had happened months prior, I felt myself slipping into burn out. My bucket was filled to the brim and even the smallest things were causing it to overflow. My anxiety got worse, my panic attacks heavier and more frequent. Everything was either overstimulating or triggering, causing my world to get smaller.

Now, I have always struggled with these kind of depressed periods in my life, but I had always managed to "fix it" myself. This time, however, I got tired of it. I didn't want to live like this anymore, constantly on edge and anxious out of my mind, so I finally reached out for help. I talked to a therapist, started taking meds for my ADD, did some journalling and lowered my screen time, and for the first time in over a year I can finally say that I'm doing better.

But during these last weeks I realized that in order to avoid another burn out, I had to make some changes. The first one is that I'll be looking for a part-time job to ease financial anxiety and create more budget for creative projects. Moris as a business is doing well, but it's not enough to create a stable income. The second thing that will change is that I will be taking a break from events, Dokomi will be my last one for the forseeable future. Lately I've fallen out of love with cons, the long drives, crazy hours and overstimulating environment have been causing me a lot of stress this year, especially since I had to do almost all of them on my own. I will miss having my cute little booth, showing off the creations I made and talking to old friends and new people, but this way I'll be able to take my time when working on a new project instead of rushing to finish it before *insert event*.

So what's next? The shop will close on the 1st of June, but don't worry, this is just a small break to prepare for Dokomi and the shop will be back up some time in July. After that I'll be taking the summer off to just be creative for fun, without the pressure of upcoming events or shop updates. For the first time in months I'm actually excited to make new things and I'm looking forward to share it with you.

Thank you to anyone who has ever visited my booth or bought something online.Moris would not be the weird little shop it is today without you love and support. This is not a goodbye, but a see you later.